TOWA

Balance is the the most important thing I focus on and emphasize in my sessions.

Strictness and mercy, craving and pleasure, politeness and cutting loose, you and me... there are many things but not all 50:50 when it comes to balance. The amount is up to me. There may be clashes, but we will find and build our balance.

I find elements in works that seem to have nothing to do with BDSM. In general video works that have BDSM as a theme or have such scenes, the women seem to be on the M side in many cases and I don't like that.

That's why these films made me feel something. For example, the Dr. Lecter series of movies such as "Silence of the Lambs" and "Hannibal", Victor Hugo's novel "Les Miserables", various works related to the Shinsengumi, reference books on world history up to the end of the 19th century, the manga "Kingdom", the music video for Beyonce's "Run the World"...

So, what elements did I find in all of these that impressed me? If you guessed all of them correctly, you might get a treat...

Castles, Western-style buildings, and villages of "ninja" hidden deep in the mountains... All of these are hard to let go, but I think this is the one.

The theater.

Have you ever seen "Phantom of the Opera" or "Phantom"? They were originally written by French author Gaston Leroux in the early 20th century. It has been made into movies and stage plays, and still popular today. It is a famous story about an ugly myestery man who hides in the basement of the Paris Opera House and longs for a beautiful diva. But it's a different story in my hands.

In the labyrinth that lies beneath a gorgeous theater of tradition and prestige, you will bow down to me, the prima donna. "Let me serve you, mistress Towa" you beg, and pledge your obedience. Be prepared to be toyed with on stage, sometimes in the middle of the night, in front of an empty house or a limited number of VIPs. You will be my servant.

If it is challenging for the masochist, it can be considered hard. What is hard and what is soft depends on the context of the moment, the timing including physical condition and mood, and the relationship with them. If you want to, and I'm willing to,

"Jump out to the Grand Line!" I'll give you a gentle pat on the back or a merciless kick in the back, just like in the one with a straw hat in the long-running manga.

#I read too much Jump(comic).

The only area under the state of emergency is the Tokyo metropolitan area. However, it may be extended, and even after it is lifted, there will be various orders.

It's like running a long distance and thinking that the goal is just around the corner, only to be told right in front of you that there are only a few more laps to go. Let the fantasy takes care of the feeling of blockage, turn it into energy and save it for the coming day.

After it's settled, I want to do something that completely ignores the now taboo "three Cs" thing.

For example, multiplayer story play. The slave acution, the domina empire, the "masochistic doc" at the domina hospital, the domina company that catches you sneaking in to steal their trade secrets and interrogates and tortures you...the secret is the honey. I'm waiting for that time with pleasure.

Title: From the musical "Elisabeth" Ich gehör nur mir /I belong to Me 

URL https://youtu.be/bteEKqdLQW4

 I couldn't find a good video, so here is one from the concert. The musical "Elisabeth" is a stage production that I came across when I was a teenager, and in Japan it is performed by the Takarazuka Revue and Toho. It is a fictionalized depiction of the life of Elisabeth, the last empress of the Habsburg Empire, who was based in Vienna, the current capital of Austria. 

Click here for a video introduction of the film ->https://youtu.be/2lC47QZbG4Y 

This is a very popular production and tickets are hard to come by. I have seen it not only in Japan, but also in Vienna and Seoul, Korea.

Elisabeth's theme song in the production is this song, "I Belong to Me". When I heard it for the first time, I was shocked and said, "This is my song!" It's been about 20 years since then, but this song still resonates with me to this day.

The English version was once used by Mao Asada, a female figure skater, in her program. The Korean version (https://youtu.be/ApXLdroE4Pw) has a wonderful singing voice.

Of the many versions I've seen, I liked the Korean version of "I Belong to Me" the best, and I would love to see Kiho Maasa, the top actress of the Takarazuka Revue's snow troupe, sing it.

You are a transfer student from the lowest class. You're given a shabby room in the attic, and you wake up before the sun comes up to clean and do the laundry, and carry my luggage during the day, making sure I'm comfortable. However, if you make a mistake or do something that upsets me, you are immediately taken away from your freedom by the strong ardent fans under my direction and taken to a hidden room in the basement that is off-limits to the rest of the students, who look at you with pity and contempt.
With no sunlight, iron bars, and cold stone floors and walls, you are confined there and punished. I'm sorry, please forgive me... even if you say that, they won't loosen you up.

It's not just when you make a mistake. The four dorm masters are all fickle. Whenever they get bored with the school life, they show each other, "Let's play with him today."
Every time this happens, you and the rest of the lowest class are used as toys in the "basement" to pass the time.

You don't know when you will be released. You don't even know what the right thing to do is. You just stew in fear, despair, and pain for what seems like an eternity.
But someday, you will look forward to being taken away to the basement.
As you were subjected to my special punishments and discipline in the secret room, you began to feel comfort instead of fear, joy instead of despair, and pleasure instead of pain. Maybe you've gone mad, maybe you've been broken.

I was head over heels when I received the subject. I read it in one sitting over the summer because it was placed there like a recommended book, but it didn't really stick with me at all, only leaving me with disgust and a headache.

I didn't even like the illustrations. I have forgotten the details of the book. I don't think I want to develop from this work into a story of my own this and that, BDSM and perversion. Nor do I want to read it again.

Whenever I come across a work, whether it is a comic, a print, a video, or a stage play, that requires a lot of effort to create, but I find it boring, I wonder if the author ever got bored, lost interest, or felt like giving up on it.

Well, it depends on what people find interesting. What did the author want to do? What did he want to convey? I have to write a relay column, so I thought about this work for a while, and the only thing that came to mind was this.

~By Towa, the one that tends to say things that are coming to nothing these days. ~.