HIKARU

"I want to fulfill the desires of submissive men and masochists."

"I want to create a space where one can be fully immersed in the world of SM."

This doesn't mean I simply accept every single desire of the other person. Rather, I value the consultation and the feeling of the moment.

After hearing what kind of mood they are in and what kind of session they want, I want to feel out the play I want to do, and how I should strike them to make them lose themselves in that world.

That is what I mean.How I, as a domina, will influence your sense of SM. The definition and aesthetics of SM differ completely from person to person.

"I like this, but you like that."So, when we mix our preferences together, what kind of melody will it create?Will it end with just the accompaniment? That won't do. Where is the climax?

The pleasure of tasting that "peak" at the exact moment our harmony snaps into place. That is what I love.

The moment of liberation that is released only during a session.

If you only look at the acts, it might seem like a world of total restriction, dominated and devoid of freedom. However, the players in the midst of it are filled with a sense of omnipotence and are liberated.

I want to create a world during our sessions where one's heart is captivated by this paradoxical and distorted worldview.It exists, yet it doesn't.

It seems not to exist, yet it did.Feeling a world like a phantom before returning to reality. SM is a hidden game.

I like manga, and I love the works of Anmo Night, from Comic Mazo.

Scenes like relentless torment from voluptuous women and dominant, strong women, and men being treated as less than human livestock. It's a manga that takes me to a world I couldn't imagine myself.

I also sense a unique SM fashion sense in the Western-style outfits of the female characters, like bondage wear, shirts, skirts, garters, and stockings.

Since the manga is told from the perspective of an M-type man, I often think, "Ah, so this is what he wants" (though since it's a niche manga, I'm not sure if that's accurate, lol).

There have been many times when sessions exceeded my expectations, and I've used this as reference.

During sessions, I prioritize atmosphere. Mood is very important so I feel that "techno music" fits well.

I want my sessions to flow like music.

I was a child, a scene flashes into my mind.

I have no memory of ever going to that place or ever seeing it.

It's just momentary, sad, and I'm staring at something with a distant look.

A girl in an oversized leather jacket, a miniskirt, stockings, and pin heels.

Her fingers hooked on a fence, looking beyond it at

A sea where the navy sky will surely turn pitch black.

Beyond that, there's a large ship sparkling with lights.

It's a pier,,

There is a girl (me) looking at it, looking as if she's about to cry.

But beyond that,

There is another person looking up from a low angle, close to the ground.

My perspective shifts from the girl to the footage of the person viewing from that low angle.

Just as I think the girl has spotted me, close to the ground, she looks down with a sharp gaze, as if she were a completely different person from a moment ago,

Leaning against the fence, she slides down into a squat.

My eyes become fixated on the miniskirt and stockings, and then on her eye sockets...

This scene suddenly appears in my daily life without any intention. I wonder what it is...? Is it a memory from a past life?

How many times have I thought that there must be some message in this scene? I still haven't found an answer.

I'm sure it will continue to appear in my mind.

So, in search of that answer, I'm looking for a similar place.

If I find a place that feels like "this is it," I, wearing an oversized leather jacket, a miniskirt, stockings, and pin heels,

Will put a collar on you,

And squat down while leaning against the fence.

it's physically intense or mentally intense, I believe these two patterns are crucial in SM play.

someone enjoys physical hardcore play, pushing them mentally to the point where they break down and feel "it's over" or "despair" can be counterproductive if it leaves them unable to recover (unless that's specifically what they want).

On the other hand, for those who want to be pushed mentally, inflicting excessive pain or leaving marks can interfere with their "inner conflict," so using tools with just the right touch is better.

I think balance is necessary in play.

However, even when I'm pushing someone thinking, "Is this about their limit?", if I feel them saying "Not yet!!" and we keep layering it on...that's when I feel it's truly "hardcore," when we both feel that chilling tension right at the edge of our limits.

Submissives can be very stoic, and I've had someone pass out while saying "I'm fine...", but at that point, the play is a failure.

Play isn't over until everyone gets home safely and in good spirits.

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